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if you say it loud enough, it may just sound atrocious

28.1.05

why is it that... 

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24.1.05

holy jeez 

oka ticked off. bad. stupid people! STOP BEING SO OVER DRAMATIC! you are worse than i am and im a fucking drama queen seriouslyi know you have problems but so does everyone else and its not like you have to broadcast it to the world everyone second of the day. if you think people dont care,you are probably right and if you dont want to talk to them anymore because of that then DONT and find some new friends that will wallow along with you.

# posted by candice. @ 10:03:00 p.m.

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miscellaneous 

late nights, early mornings. fights without warnings. my shadow wont walk with me. my reflection wont look at me.its a great day. I admire some people's ability to remain uninfluenced by the people around them. It makes them stand out so much more. And in the way they stand out, it makes you want to be like them; to have the ability to disregard the people surrounding them. It's like detaching your mind. So confused lately. I can't seem to piece anything together and I feel like im running the race with an anchor tied to my ankle. Things are bad everywhere and I've given up on trying to fix them because it wont work. Even if i do, it'll just get all messed up again anyway. Intimidation sets in more often than not and in very isolated incidents. What to do?

take a listen
I Need Some Sleep - The Eels

I need some sleep
You can't go on like this
I'd tried counting sheep
But there's one I always miss

Everyone says
I’m getting down too low
Everyone says
You just gotta let it go
You just gotta let it go
You just gotta let it go

I need some sleep
Time to put the old horse down
I’m in too deep
And the wheels keep spinnin’ round

Everyone says
I’m getting down too low
Everyone says
You just gotta let it go
You just gotta let it go
You just gotta let it go

You just gotta let it go
You just gotta let it go

Just gotta let it go

# posted by candice. @ 9:47:00 p.m.

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23.1.05

artist recommendations 

a: aqualung, aqueduct, avant
b: billy talent, boys II men
c: coldplay
d: death cab for cutie, dashboard confessional
e: eve 6, evermore
f: foo fighters, franz ferdinand, finch
g: greenday, goo goo dolls, gwen stefani
h:
i: imogen heap
j: joseph arthur, jimmy eat world, jimmy bondoc (crazy filipinos)
k: keane
l: latif
m: moist, moments in grace, m-flo
o: our lady peace, ok go, old 97's (but only "question")
p: postal service, pilate, pedro the lion, phantom planet
q:
r: rooney, ryan cabrera, red hot chili peppers, rashad
s: smile empty soul, switchfoot, south, super furry animals, saybia, something corporate
t: the thrills, the eels, the mile after, the killers, taking back sunday
u: underoath
v:
w: weezer
x:
y:
z: zack hexum

dont like them? recommend your own.

# posted by candice. @ 6:14:00 p.m.

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17.1.05

bio and english and french OH MY 

period 2: bio quiz; digestion and the digestive system, period 3: english in class midterm written; personal response, period 4: french oral; rules to the new student, all in all: screwed over. middies start friiiiday i am so overjoyed (/sarcasm). ANYWAY! some people should learn to mind their own business, and yes i know you read this so you better be fucking paying attention. i do not enjoy you trekking into and invading my life. i do not enjoy the way you try to control everything like its your world, because it is NOT. and i HIGHLY suggest that you start to lay off AS SOON AS POSSIBLE because if you do not, things are bound to get worse. and if you think its you but you are doubting that its you because you think you're great, think again, because it probably is you. alright that felt good. i love letter association. it makes me feel smart.

# posted by candice. @ 10:53:00 p.m.

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12.1.05

"we have opened the flood gates of gossip." 

i dont really think it was gossip, but more of a discussion that involved a lot of people. my thumb is sprained. it makes me laugh. im kind of tired.

# posted by candice. @ 10:26:00 p.m.

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10.1.05

epiphany? 

green with envy. but envious about what? i dont know for sure right now. but i can feel it. and it boils up every now and then and thise horrible green monster takes my place and attacks. maybe its because everyone seems to be able to reach perfection by just thinking it and i feel like im drowning like i'll never make it up out of the deep end. im sinking. slowly. and i get further from the surface everyday. i am losing sleep over nothing but it seems like everything. these things shouldnt make a difference but they do and thats what it so horrible. right now if there could be one thing that i would do it would be to just stop time. stop time and just sort my self out. myself, my life everything. i dont know what to do next. i feel as though i cant do anything without being told to do so first. and i feel as though im clinging on to the people around me for falso support and that the more i want them there the more they tend to drift away. its like i panic and i can breathe because all thats going in is water.

# posted by candice. @ 10:33:00 p.m.

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self mutilation? 

my left hand is in extreme pain. i thought it would go away! ugh the middle fingeri think i hurt it last week when i was setting and it got jammed. it still hurts when i rub it. and TODAY! that stupid left hand tip! @#!$ jammed my thumb, i cant bend it now =) oh greaaat. i hope its nothing too serious. || its been finalized. im quitting piano. i dont like the word quitting, its like saying im giving it up forever. but im not because i'll still play those songs ive been playing all along but now i wont have to worry about the syllabus holding me back. its like a new found freedom. || i feel the need to accomplish something great. maybe now, maybe in my life. i just feel as though i need to contribute something to SOMEONE. ive felt so useless lately. i know i cant be a kid forever, and things have got to start chinging. im not saying that i should just stop doing things for fun because that would just be retarded, but i think that i should invest more of my time into something that will help me in my future, not necessarily school, but something that will give me an experience that i'll be able to put to use. it feels as though everyone around me is moving at the speed of light and i'm just standing there and they're all just passing me by, and by the time i reach out to touch them they're gone to things i'll never know. its insane. anyways its time to stop i have a bio write up to do and my thumb is killing me. i wonder if it will swell.

# posted by candice. @ 9:49:00 p.m.

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9.1.05

oy >_< 

bio is difficult and quite taxing. i am quite obessed. GAR! and midterms are coming. holy bejeebus. i dont think i can handle this. more late nights hunched over books, studying until my eyes dry out and shrivel in their sockets. [sarcasm] oh its going to be a great month! [/sarcasm] (and who says you cant express yourself on the internet?) i have major insecurities, its great. it's going to kill me one day. things would work a lot better if i didnt have to see, then i wouldnt be so worried about things. erngh! on top of it all; i think my furnace is broke. GOD DAMNIT!

# posted by candice. @ 9:46:00 p.m.

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8.1.05

ergnh 

bottle drives in the dead of winter are a very, VERY bad idea! i feel feverish and still cold! and i havnt done any homework. i'm pretty sure we woke up lots of people, SEEING AS WE STARTED AT NINE THIRTY IN THE MORNING!!!! errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr so tired -_________-;;

# posted by candice. @ 11:18:00 p.m.

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7.1.05

im on a blogging streak tonight! 

SO! i should probably be sleeping seeing as i have to get up at like 7:30 tomorrow morning for that bottle drive but something popped into my head and i'd like to share it with you all...
I'M TOO FULL
FOR BROCCOLI
BUT I STILL
HAVE ROOM FOR
SOME PIE!!!
that was some good childhood reminiscing but if anyone knows that song, leae a comment. because if you do, you deserver a cookie!

# posted by candice. @ 11:39:00 p.m.

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i should stay late more often 

HAHAHA crap i hope you read this. sooo i decided to stay late at school today so i could get a ride home from school and not have to take the bus! (cause it's cold outside and i think i might be getting sick) so instead of doing bio homework we left the school (also because the circuit training people like to stink) so we went to dream tea (i saw this guy i knew he still looks like he's gay, he also has friends that look like they are gay) and then bought our drinks and so when we got back into andrew's car we sat there for like five minutes thinking of something to do because we didnt want to go back to the school. SO! we drove back to the school to drop mike off becuase he had to go and wait for his ride, and then we drove on whyte for a bit because vicky wanted to go visit my wifey (sophie) at kinsmen but we decided not to because she was not picking up her telephone. SO THEN, we just drove around the rural areas near the school. And andrew keeps tapping his hand break. That is when we decided to go drifting. After much searching we came to an intersection where andrew promptly stated something to the likes of, "This would be an awesome corner to drift on if there wasnt a stop sign." after which he paused and then continued with, "we dont have to obey it" and he starts to hit the gas to try and drift the corner. UNTIL! this ghetto lowrider(thats what i saw, i dont know what car is was, but it was ghetto) game barrelling from the left side of the intersection followed by andrew saying "OKAY! MAYBE WE DO!" so after a near death experience we continued our search for the perfect drifting area and after a slow start we found the perfect little patch of space right next to the teacher's parking lot! HARHARHAR it was great. so the first REAAAAL (almost) drift that we attempted we go and in the car all you can here is "180!!! 180!!!" it was pretty close to we were only like 5 degrees off! and then there was the one drift in the adjacent parking lot where he had the perfect counter steering and there was like the fishtail thing going on! next drift site: heritage parking lot.

# posted by candice. @ 10:54:00 p.m.

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