30.4.05
reality is a harsh slap to the face. today was a bad day for dreaming and a brutal one of realization. oh yea. i told my self not to and that i wouldnt. over and over. but i did. fuck. self persuasion is one difficult thing to pull off. maybe its time to detach and just use avoidance. that's usually a good tactic. why is it so enticing? like i forgot for a while and then it came back and pounced on me. and now i feel like i cant get away. why are guys retardedly oblivious to everything?
