21.2.05
no matter...
how many times you say that it doesnt matter, deep down inside you can't help thinking that it does. you can tell yourself that you dont care about what others think of you, that you dont care about what you wear, or who your friends are. but in reality i believe that you're always trying to impress someone, that inorder to impress you have to look a certain way, and maybe, in looking a certain way you can make some new friends and move up a rung or two on that horrifically out of shape social ladder. whatever "you'll never change what's been and gone"
anyway feeling kind of angry at the world, at people. i dont think it's so much anger as it is envy and desperation and apathy and annoyance all rolled into one. there are things that i really want to say, but i know if i did they would compromise the situation of things. tensions right now are high but i dont think it's that noticable. everyone seems to be getting along, but at one wrong word people are going off like time bombs. if its not now, and not two hours from now, it will be two days or two weeks from now. "no body knows the way it's gonna be"
been listening to some old oasis. never thought music could feel this good. things feel like they're passing "faster than a cannon ball"
dreading school tomorrow i know i should have studied a bit this weekend for the tests that are coming up next week but yah i dont know. whatever it'll all come back to bite me anyway. oh well i'll "just try not to worry
i dont understand why people tell you to have dreams in life. seriously its such a horrible thing to tell kids because its such a let down when they learn that they cant have everything they want no matter if they want it that badly. somethings just shouldnt be taught, i really think that's one it them. by telling them they would just be "throwing it all away"
anyway feeling kind of angry at the world, at people. i dont think it's so much anger as it is envy and desperation and apathy and annoyance all rolled into one. there are things that i really want to say, but i know if i did they would compromise the situation of things. tensions right now are high but i dont think it's that noticable. everyone seems to be getting along, but at one wrong word people are going off like time bombs. if its not now, and not two hours from now, it will be two days or two weeks from now. "no body knows the way it's gonna be"
been listening to some old oasis. never thought music could feel this good. things feel like they're passing "faster than a cannon ball"
dreading school tomorrow i know i should have studied a bit this weekend for the tests that are coming up next week but yah i dont know. whatever it'll all come back to bite me anyway. oh well i'll "just try not to worry
i dont understand why people tell you to have dreams in life. seriously its such a horrible thing to tell kids because its such a let down when they learn that they cant have everything they want no matter if they want it that badly. somethings just shouldnt be taught, i really think that's one it them. by telling them they would just be "throwing it all away"
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