30.6.04
out of sight, out of mind
haha if only i keep looking in that direction and i know i should stop but its so involuntary and i cant help it -___-;; i should probably get rid of it... like i should get rid of a lot of things... i always say i will but i never do i guess thats oka but when its something stupid like this its just so frustrating! its all just a game of questions...it always goes back and forth from one extremity to another and the answers arenever certain, things wil be great one minute but will plunge the next this is why i try to avoid things like this because only bad things and come from them. i always tell myself that i'll never go back but i always end up turning around and erasing those words from my head i dont know why. sometimes i want to leave this place. this family, this city, this life, and start all over again. i think it'd be so much easier with a clean slate, no mistakes nothing, what i wouldnt give for a permanent case of amesia. itd be awesome to be able to forget all the things that went wrong all the people who walked away, just all the people period. ugh. i hate reality, i hate its restrictions and limits and the pain that it causes, i wish i could live in a movie where there's always a happy ending. right so im going to go wallow in my self pity -___-;;
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28.6.04
condensed
so im going to squish the past couple days into one blog thingy i think i can do it
friday:
shopping day with anthonigger haha how useless how long were we out for???? and what did we buy...NOTHING!!! thats what!!! but i got freee bubbletea! so its all good haha but now i have to decide between two different pairs of shoes!!! =( this stinks you guys!!! and i saw so many nice things! shizzle =( i need a job! haha and harry potter with anthony the chubby white guy kept looking at me cause i punched anthony to keep him awake and then anthony got scared when lupin and sirius have a go at it haha scared at harry potter i never thought the day would come =) we had brownies too teeeheee
saturday:
i went shopping with mommy =) well kinda shopping minus the not buying anything haha i almost bought a guess purse! it was cute but it looked like the new one pauline had just bought... so i will wait and my mommy will buy one for me! *yay* what else? made jelllo and jen party! with blind volleyball! haha and the swings! and the fire! which made me smell like smoke -___-;; that i didnt appreciate too much haha and then andrew and ray playing darts...quite the ordeal...be forewarned that its not safe when they play...especially andrew...CRAZY KOREANS!!! bwahaha what else happened on saturday? i dont remember oh i watched the classic! such a sad story =( made me cry
today(sunday):
hmm i watched more movies today there was magic kitchen with sammi and andy and sing-yuk (he's pretty good looking! XD) that was a cute movie, not as good as i thought it would be though... oh well what can you expect... i think the old school sammi movies are ten times better they made me cry =) haha and i just finished watching my wife is 18 with ekin and charlene kinda interesting story. it was a mediocre movie nothing tooo special =/
so yes that was the past threeeeeeeee days of nothing haha darn those movies make me ask the eternal question...why cant guys be like the guys in movies? marks tomorrow i fear the wors espcially english... GOD DAMN ENGLISH!!! i hope you rot in hell -____-;; this year was a complete failure academically i only hope that i use this as the kick in the butt that i need to get moving next year because seriously if i dont i will be sooooooo screwed over next year -____-;; oh well i should sleep now so i can wake up tomorrow but i dont feel tired at all god damn im going to be soooo dead tomorrow =( oh shizzle i hope i dont fall asleed if we go see a movie >.<
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friday:
shopping day with anthonigger haha how useless how long were we out for???? and what did we buy...NOTHING!!! thats what!!! but i got freee bubbletea! so its all good haha but now i have to decide between two different pairs of shoes!!! =( this stinks you guys!!! and i saw so many nice things! shizzle =( i need a job! haha and harry potter with anthony the chubby white guy kept looking at me cause i punched anthony to keep him awake and then anthony got scared when lupin and sirius have a go at it haha scared at harry potter i never thought the day would come =) we had brownies too teeeheee
saturday:
i went shopping with mommy =) well kinda shopping minus the not buying anything haha i almost bought a guess purse! it was cute but it looked like the new one pauline had just bought... so i will wait and my mommy will buy one for me! *yay* what else? made jelllo and jen party! with blind volleyball! haha and the swings! and the fire! which made me smell like smoke -___-;; that i didnt appreciate too much haha and then andrew and ray playing darts...quite the ordeal...be forewarned that its not safe when they play...especially andrew...CRAZY KOREANS!!! bwahaha what else happened on saturday? i dont remember oh i watched the classic! such a sad story =( made me cry
today(sunday):
hmm i watched more movies today there was magic kitchen with sammi and andy and sing-yuk (he's pretty good looking! XD) that was a cute movie, not as good as i thought it would be though... oh well what can you expect... i think the old school sammi movies are ten times better they made me cry =) haha and i just finished watching my wife is 18 with ekin and charlene kinda interesting story. it was a mediocre movie nothing tooo special =/
so yes that was the past threeeeeeeee days of nothing haha darn those movies make me ask the eternal question...why cant guys be like the guys in movies? marks tomorrow i fear the wors espcially english... GOD DAMN ENGLISH!!! i hope you rot in hell -____-;; this year was a complete failure academically i only hope that i use this as the kick in the butt that i need to get moving next year because seriously if i dont i will be sooooooo screwed over next year -____-;; oh well i should sleep now so i can wake up tomorrow but i dont feel tired at all god damn im going to be soooo dead tomorrow =( oh shizzle i hope i dont fall asleed if we go see a movie >.<
25.6.04
looking back 2003/2004
so its been an interesting year. theres been the good the bad and the horrifically ugly.
the ugly:
well what was ugly? i dont treally think things were so much ugly as they were bad put i'll probably think of something eventually and i'll edit my post and sneak it in =)
the bad:
hmm lots of stuff to put under this one! there was that ski trip incident which was kinda retarded but still really mean >=/ you know who you are. and yea i dont know it just seems that everyones drifted apart from each other, like our little group isnt as 'tight' as we used to be. i guess maybe we're starting to find our own friends or whatever but like anothonigger was saying today its really awkward to talk to people now and there isnt really a reason for it, there's just nothing there anymore. hmm what else happened this year? hmmmm there was that incident with my parents that was pretty bad =/ my birthday (or lack thereof) was kinda...yah haha there was also that whole boy thing too but boys stink so i think im kinda over that now not sure though what else? k yea i think im forgetting something whatever i'll get back to it
the good:
haha good things were few and far apart. i've met some awesome people this past 'year' and i've gotten to know other people a lot more. its great having people to talk to, to like just sit down over coffee when we really should be studying and not studying but just talking hahaha i think that's what i miss the most from september being able to just talk to people, maybe things will change for the better, if not then oh well right?
23.6.04
doo doo doo doo (8) i am hooked on fobber music! wang lee hom is pretty good looking =)
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19.6.04
you think you know someone, but then it turns out you never really did and that it was all just a bunch of wasted time. sometimes i tell myself that i shoulds top wrorying over the little things but the more i tell myself not to worry, the more i worry -____-;; stupid finals makes me angry, like my lack of motivation. i want to learn some new music, i'll add that to my list of stuff to do this summer i still have to call the grey nuns i think i'll write it on my hand. the future seems pretty interesting thought like today we were talking about it all over dinner. i hope we never listen to charles and eat at tony roma's again becuase it was a waste... if you read this... IT WAS A WASTE! anyway! im happy the year's over! i'll be glad to get away from some of the people yea oka thats all and tony romas never again!
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