4.12.03
"so hows so-and-so doing in school?"
"they're doing good"
"how are you doing in school?"
"im doing oka"
"how are so-and-so's mark in so-and-so?"
"good."
"better than yours?"
"yea"
"why cant you be more like so-and-so? why cant you listen more in class? why dont you pay more attention to your teachers?"
"...."
they're always comparing me to someone, if its not my cousins then its people from school or something. "look at so-and-so, they're involved in so many activities and they can still get 90's! why cant you be like them?" seriously its not like i dont try to please my parents but i dont know sometimesits just like what the hell more do you want from me i cant give you anymore than im already giving like really i dont think im doing that bad but theres always room for improvement but like one bad mark and i get hell for a month and my sistersgod one of them doesnt even talk to my parents and works and still lives at home and still gets like 150 a month for doing nothing like seriously she cant even fucking pick up after herself i get the blame for any mess she leaves and the other one my god she comes home and says "guess what! i got 72 on my science test! isnt that great?" what kinda of fucking standards are those and my rents are like "oh yea? thats nice, are you going any where this weekend? is anyone coming over? it doesnt matter that candice has to study for three tests and create a visual presentation you can have a giant party for all i care!" like wtf if i brought home a 72 id get "why didnt you study? i bet so-and-so got 80's. you're not going anywhere this weekend you're staying home, practicing piano and cleaning your room." its retarded and things at school arnt any better i think i just need some time away from everyone i'll be so god damn happy when christmas break comes i wont see anyone for like two weeks and i can just go hang out with old friends who i can count on you know? like seriously i put up with enough shit at home i dont need it at school too i go to school to get away from home thats the point and at the end of the day theres that feeling of dread of having to go somewhere you dont want to its like you just want to stop time and just kinda of live one moment over and over no matter how repetitive it is becuase it will always be better than moving on and continuing with the way things are supposed to go
"they're doing good"
"how are you doing in school?"
"im doing oka"
"how are so-and-so's mark in so-and-so?"
"good."
"better than yours?"
"yea"
"why cant you be more like so-and-so? why cant you listen more in class? why dont you pay more attention to your teachers?"
"...."
they're always comparing me to someone, if its not my cousins then its people from school or something. "look at so-and-so, they're involved in so many activities and they can still get 90's! why cant you be like them?" seriously its not like i dont try to please my parents but i dont know sometimesits just like what the hell more do you want from me i cant give you anymore than im already giving like really i dont think im doing that bad but theres always room for improvement but like one bad mark and i get hell for a month and my sistersgod one of them doesnt even talk to my parents and works and still lives at home and still gets like 150 a month for doing nothing like seriously she cant even fucking pick up after herself i get the blame for any mess she leaves and the other one my god she comes home and says "guess what! i got 72 on my science test! isnt that great?" what kinda of fucking standards are those and my rents are like "oh yea? thats nice, are you going any where this weekend? is anyone coming over? it doesnt matter that candice has to study for three tests and create a visual presentation you can have a giant party for all i care!" like wtf if i brought home a 72 id get "why didnt you study? i bet so-and-so got 80's. you're not going anywhere this weekend you're staying home, practicing piano and cleaning your room." its retarded and things at school arnt any better i think i just need some time away from everyone i'll be so god damn happy when christmas break comes i wont see anyone for like two weeks and i can just go hang out with old friends who i can count on you know? like seriously i put up with enough shit at home i dont need it at school too i go to school to get away from home thats the point and at the end of the day theres that feeling of dread of having to go somewhere you dont want to its like you just want to stop time and just kinda of live one moment over and over no matter how repetitive it is becuase it will always be better than moving on and continuing with the way things are supposed to go
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