20.10.03
waaaaay past my bed time
haha its only 11 but its past my bed time andi should be working on physics but im not and yes big things have come up.
him. so we've actually started talking more due to what resons, i dont know, but we have and its interesting. i dont know i guess its oka now i kind of just want it to stay the way it is between us cause i think we talk more like this and he's easy to confide in haha cause no one knows him so theres no one he can tell and i can trust him the way he trusts me with his thoughts and secrets and what not.
school is starting to worry me, like seriously, what if i dont get the mark i need to get into the faculty i want, then what? i dont want to spend therest of my life doing something that i dont like cause that would be hell seriously ive always hoped that i would find the perfect career that i would be happy to go to every day and now that idea is looking like a total flop and yea i want to be able to prove to my parents that i can make something out of myself contrary to what they believe, they still think that i copy people's work and hand it in as my own and seriously i hate it.
friends. this topic has been coming up a lot lately. friend by definition is 1) a person whom one knows, likes, and trusts. 2) a person whom one knows; an acquaintance. 3) a person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comrade. 4) one who supports, sympathizes with, or patronizes a group, cause, or movement. friends are extremely hard to come by, i know this first hand. ive met lots of people that i trusted too quickly that ended up not keeping secrets like i had expected. maybe thats why i dont trust people now. does that mean im skeptical? maybe paranoid? that doesnt prove that i am, but i am.
people. deductively, people that run rumor mills. 'nuff said.
him. so we've actually started talking more due to what resons, i dont know, but we have and its interesting. i dont know i guess its oka now i kind of just want it to stay the way it is between us cause i think we talk more like this and he's easy to confide in haha cause no one knows him so theres no one he can tell and i can trust him the way he trusts me with his thoughts and secrets and what not.
school is starting to worry me, like seriously, what if i dont get the mark i need to get into the faculty i want, then what? i dont want to spend therest of my life doing something that i dont like cause that would be hell seriously ive always hoped that i would find the perfect career that i would be happy to go to every day and now that idea is looking like a total flop and yea i want to be able to prove to my parents that i can make something out of myself contrary to what they believe, they still think that i copy people's work and hand it in as my own and seriously i hate it.
friends. this topic has been coming up a lot lately. friend by definition is 1) a person whom one knows, likes, and trusts. 2) a person whom one knows; an acquaintance. 3) a person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comrade. 4) one who supports, sympathizes with, or patronizes a group, cause, or movement. friends are extremely hard to come by, i know this first hand. ive met lots of people that i trusted too quickly that ended up not keeping secrets like i had expected. maybe thats why i dont trust people now. does that mean im skeptical? maybe paranoid? that doesnt prove that i am, but i am.
people. deductively, people that run rumor mills. 'nuff said.
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