5.4.07
numb.
well i wish i could be. i dont even know what to feel anymore. like, i know HOW i SHOULD, and what i should think about things and how i should act and respond, but everytime he talks to me, i just want to yell and scream in hopes that maybe he'll feel a little bit guilty and understand WHY. i'm slightly disappointed in myself for letting my emotions take the reigns, i should know better than that. what happened? it always happens like that... it always comes out of no where... like, right now, i feel soo angry. i dont understand how people can say so many things over and over again and then be completely oblivious about it. like i'm sure i've said stuff to people that i didn't really mean, however, i'm usually intoxicated and i don's remember anyway. but like, he's saying things and i'm pretty sure he knew that i believed him and then what?... NOTHING. like... really, absolutely NOTHING.
fucking flirtbags.
he's not even good looking.
fucking flirtbags.
he's not even good looking.
